Sunshine
“The nightmares. And the fact that the cut on my breast wouldn’t heal.
That’s nonsense, of course. If I’d been able to face being honest, there was no way it wasn’t going to be bad.
I suppose I didn’t realize how rough I was that first morning. After I had one bath I had another. (Bless landladies with absurdly huge water heaters.) I washed my hair three times during that first bath and twice during the second. Hot water and soap and shampoo hurt like blazes, but it was a wonderful, human, normal, this-world sort of hurt. Getting dressed wasn’t too difficult because my wardrobe specializes in soft, well-worn, and comfortable, but finding shoes and socks that didn’t feel like they were scarifying my poor feet with steel wool was hard. Then I drank a pot of very strong tea and on the caffeine buzz I almost half convinced myself that I felt almost half normal and if I felt half normal I must look half normal.
Wrong.
At the last minute I didn’t burn the dress. I put it in the sink with som...e handwash stuff and then hung it in a corner with a bowl under it to drip dry.MoreLess
That’s nonsense, of course. If I’d been able to face being honest, there was no way it wasn’t going to be bad.
I suppose I didn’t realize how rough I was that first morning. After I had one bath I had another. (Bless landladies with absurdly huge water heaters.) I washed my hair three times during that first bath and twice during the second. Hot water and soap and shampoo hurt like blazes, but it was a wonderful, human, normal, this-world sort of hurt. Getting dressed wasn’t too difficult because my wardrobe specializes in soft, well-worn, and comfortable, but finding shoes and socks that didn’t feel like they were scarifying my poor feet with steel wool was hard. Then I drank a pot of very strong tea and on the caffeine buzz I almost half convinced myself that I felt almost half normal and if I felt half normal I must look half normal.
Wrong.
At the last minute I didn’t burn the dress. I put it in the sink with som...e handwash stuff and then hung it in a corner with a bowl under it to drip dry.MoreLess
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