Stochastic Man
““The worst of it,” Carvajal said, “is seeing your own death. That’s the moment when the life goes out of you, not when you actually die, but when you have to see it.”
“Is that the curse you were talking about?”
“Yes. That’s the curse. That’s what killed me, Lew, long before my proper time. I was almost thirty years old, the first time I saw it. I’ve seen it many times since. I know the date, the hour, the place, the circumstances. I’ve lived through it again and again, the beginning, the middle..., the end, the darkness, the silence. And once I saw it, life became nothing more than a meaningless puppet show for me.”
“What was the worst part?” I asked. “Knowing when, knowing how?”
“Knowing that,” he said.
“That you would die at all?”
“Yes.”
“I don’t understand. I mean, it must be disturbing, yes, to watch yourself die, to see your own finish as if on a newsreel, but there can’t be any fundamental element of surprise in it, can there? I mean, death is inevitable and we all know it from the time we’re little children.”MoreLess
“Is that the curse you were talking about?”
“Yes. That’s the curse. That’s what killed me, Lew, long before my proper time. I was almost thirty years old, the first time I saw it. I’ve seen it many times since. I know the date, the hour, the place, the circumstances. I’ve lived through it again and again, the beginning, the middle..., the end, the darkness, the silence. And once I saw it, life became nothing more than a meaningless puppet show for me.”
“What was the worst part?” I asked. “Knowing when, knowing how?”
“Knowing that,” he said.
“That you would die at all?”
“Yes.”
“I don’t understand. I mean, it must be disturbing, yes, to watch yourself die, to see your own finish as if on a newsreel, but there can’t be any fundamental element of surprise in it, can there? I mean, death is inevitable and we all know it from the time we’re little children.”MoreLess
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